when you loose someone....
when you loose someone important to you, it hurts and you think that there is nothing in the world that can cause you this much pain ever again. You think that your life has come to an end, that its never going to be the same again. and you are right... its the harsh reality. Your life will never be the same again. You will loose that person forever... you will never be able to touch or hold them close to you again, at this point in life you will regret, you'll regret every single time you chose not to spend time with that special person because you were tired, or wanted to do somethign else. You will even regret not getting that glass of water for them. You will regret not staying in for dinner, you will regret not eating that home cooked meal, and instead having maccas. You'll also regret not reminding that person to take medicine when they are sick, and you will mostly regret that you put yourself first over that person. The person loved you and gave life to you, you may have been a good daughter, or maybe you were a good son. But you still regret because there were so many things that you wanted to do, but didnt get around to doing. Our chances have passed now, we must accept our fate. We shed tears, to ease our pain, we deny reality, because it makes life bearable. till this day i still dont know how to deal with the loss of a loved one.... i wish i could comfort you, and take away all the pain that you feel, i wish i could whisper into your ears, the secret of how to bear this pain, but the truth is i dont know how. I am still dealing with my own pain, and all i can offer to you is a shoulder for you to cry on, a hand for you to hold, and a ear to listen, to listen closely as each one of your tears fall. Dont try fear being judged in your time of pain, mourn your loved one so that they will know that they have made a impact in your life, cry the tears, every last one that you will ever have. For your loved one has earned your respect and should be given every last bit.
dont be afraid to cry, dont be afraid to hate, dont be afraid to blame, they will all help you to ease the pain, they will all help you to feel better. But yoru loved one has gone somwhere better, they have passed on to a greater place, This may seem as thought they have left you behind, but think about it, they will never have left you if they had a choice. It loved you, because it gave you flesh, and bones and breath. It fed you and clothed you, it educated you and disciplined you, everything that you have and have become belongs to it, it is for this reason, its spirit will never die, and will be ingrained in you, for as long as you wish it to be. It lives inside of you. When you place your hand on your chest, and breath in, you will feel it breathing with you.
It will always be with you.
A family friend once told me, there is nothing left of the person you love.... all that remain are the things that it loved and the things that it had. go and find those things, and keep a piece that means somethign to you, and hold on to it. treasure it. because as years go on, and seasons change, your memories will fade, and you will slowly start to forget wat it looks like. but if you keep something of it close to you, it will help you to remeber and to always have a piece of it with you.
so find something, something that was special to it, and special to you, and keep it safe, so that you will always have a piece of him with you. So that you will never feel alone, no matter where you are, or who you are with.
Be strong, my friend, for yourself, for your family, for your mother, and for you friends.
we will always be here for you.