My life...

2006-11-24T19:36:00.000-08:00

this will be my last post here..all good memories n nightmare will leave here..n a new life is going to start at another world soon.. thanks for visiting!

2006-11-17T01:26:00.000-08:00

1 more paper to go...damn suffer...1 more to go on next monday..after that, free from hell.....there is something new brand behind n new thing in mind...fidelity?honesty?conscience?trendy?really or ready?? i m here...

2006-11-15T23:22:00.000-08:00

"That's My Goal - Shayne ward"
You know where I've come from,
You know my story,
You know why I'm standing here...
Tonight,
Please don't go,
Don't be in a hurry,
I'm here to make it clear,
Make it right,
Well I know I've acted foolish,
But I promise you no more,
I've finally found that something
Worth reaching for,
I'm not here to say
I'm sorry,
I'm not here to lie to you,
I'm here to say I'm ready,
That I've finally thought it through,
I'm not here to let you're love go,
I'm not giving up oh no,
I'm here to win your heart and soul,
That's my goal.
Please don't go,
You know that I need you,
And can't breath without you,
Live without you,
Be without you,
Well I know I've acted foolish,
But i promise you no more,
I'm not here to say I'm sorry,
I'm not here to lie to you,
I'm here to say I'm ready,
That I've finally thought it through,
I'm not here to let you're love go,
I'm not giving up oh no,
I'm here to win your heart and soul,
That's my goal.
Well i won't stop believing,
That we will be leaving together,
So when I say i love you,
I mean it forever and ever,
ever and ever....
I'm not here to say I'm sorry,
I'm not here to say I'm sorry,
I'm not here to lie to you,
I'm here to say I'm ready,
That I've finally thought it through,
I'm not here to let you're love go,
I'm not giving up oh no,
I'm here to win your heart and soul,
Yes I'm here to win your heart and soul,
Thats my goal....

2006-10-23T10:50:00.000-07:00

when you loose someone....
when you loose someone important to you, it hurts and you think that there is nothing in the world that can cause you this much pain ever again. You think that your life has come to an end, that its never going to be the same again. and you are right... its the harsh reality. Your life will never be the same again. You will loose that person forever... you will never be able to touch or hold them close to you again, at this point in life you will regret, you'll regret every single time you chose not to spend time with that special person because you were tired, or wanted to do somethign else. You will even regret not getting that glass of water for them. You will regret not staying in for dinner, you will regret not eating that home cooked meal, and instead having maccas. You'll also regret not reminding that person to take medicine when they are sick, and you will mostly regret that you put yourself first over that person. The person loved you and gave life to you, you may have been a good daughter, or maybe you were a good son. But you still regret because there were so many things that you wanted to do, but didnt get around to doing. Our chances have passed now, we must accept our fate. We shed tears, to ease our pain, we deny reality, because it makes life bearable. till this day i still dont know how to deal with the loss of a loved one.... i wish i could comfort you, and take away all the pain that you feel, i wish i could whisper into your ears, the secret of how to bear this pain, but the truth is i dont know how. I am still dealing with my own pain, and all i can offer to you is a shoulder for you to cry on, a hand for you to hold, and a ear to listen, to listen closely as each one of your tears fall. Dont try fear being judged in your time of pain, mourn your loved one so that they will know that they have made a impact in your life, cry the tears, every last one that you will ever have. For your loved one has earned your respect and should be given every last bit.
dont be afraid to cry, dont be afraid to hate, dont be afraid to blame, they will all help you to ease the pain, they will all help you to feel better. But yoru loved one has gone somwhere better, they have passed on to a greater place, This may seem as thought they have left you behind, but think about it, they will never have left you if they had a choice. It loved you, because it gave you flesh, and bones and breath. It fed you and clothed you, it educated you and disciplined you, everything that you have and have become belongs to it, it is for this reason, its spirit will never die, and will be ingrained in you, for as long as you wish it to be. It lives inside of you. When you place your hand on your chest, and breath in, you will feel it breathing with you.
It will always be with you.
A family friend once told me, there is nothing left of the person you love.... all that remain are the things that it loved and the things that it had. go and find those things, and keep a piece that means somethign to you, and hold on to it. treasure it. because as years go on, and seasons change, your memories will fade, and you will slowly start to forget wat it looks like. but if you keep something of it close to you, it will help you to remeber and to always have a piece of it with you.
so find something, something that was special to it, and special to you, and keep it safe, so that you will always have a piece of him with you. So that you will never feel alone, no matter where you are, or who you are with.
Be strong, my friend, for yourself, for your family, for your mother, and for you friends.
we will always be here for you.

2006-10-21T11:57:00.000-07:00

i in study break now...juz studying onlylo...yea..i m fine ...recover bit bit liao..juz tat my throat stil pain... sigh..ned drink more "liang cha"..i wasted 1 week juz for my sicknesslo..doc said mayb the fish bone i ingested half way...so cant c any oso..but i really felt got something lo..but now ..dun hav de..juz pain..need stat study lo..i scared cant finis..quite hard tis time..i dun wan fail ar...i at home now..home sweet home..nothing to worry about..juz eat, enjoy,slp...lazy rite?but boring during tis festival lo..coz not out..my fren all very busy bout examlo..yea..actly, this time many ppl examle..december more relax..to all my fren, good luck in ur exam..n for u, thanks alot for concerning me..so happy to know u le..u know who i meant..hope i will get well soon..=)study study studylo..i hate study!

2006-10-13T12:24:00.000-07:00

finally finished my attachment...n i got my paid- rm 230+++ juz for 2 weeks..actly for other ppl n not same place..no money given le..but for us in this place got wo..ye..can use it for somethings...after bec from tat, juz went for a nap on my table..then wokeup bath..then about 11pm, out to midvalley for movie- ghost games from thailand..emm..not badla..but wont tat so scary..but oklo..not bad..emm..after finised watching, it was about 2 pm, then i n my fren out yumcha...so hungry..so eat something lo..now juz bec..emm..later i muz hav a nice slp ..2moro i will try to finis my report coz sunday wan out again...kai kai n eat n playlo..yea..so long time didnt so relax liaoo...not bad..juz tat MONEY is the limited factor..if not, i will be more kai xin ler..cheers my fren...hope u all can study hard ..as for me too, wish i can study lo..after playing n enjoying for this few days...going to slp soon..juz wan online for a while ;)

2006-10-12T09:43:00.000-07:00

2day bec from placement..2moro last day..2day go cut hair n ate teepayaki- tempura for my dinner..so fast..going to finis the attachment..then i may bec hometown..then study for my exam lo..sigh..ned study again..will less online liao lo..

2006-10-10T06:53:00.000-07:00

yesterday went to 1 utama watched the banquent..emm..for me, is ok ok nia..if for other ppl, may fall aslep ba..but then the way of killing ppl quite nicela n unexpected...n oso juz walked around..then bec near 1am...nothing to purchase oso...then after tat, online, chat, bath...coz 2moro no attachment..then is nice lo..but the wireless is terrible...off n on n off..very terukla..2day i slp till 4pm..omg..another day gone..i found today weather better if compare last time..not tat worse la..n out eat..then juz bec..i heard 2day in front of our vista C apartment..got 2 more cases of flashers..omg..so 'GOOD'! duno who got chance to enjoy or c the 'BIRDY VIEW' ..haha..i think they shld take down the photo lo..but this time is malay not chinese like b4...haha...emm..think of going to swim later..but quite lazy oso..c how ba..2moro got attachment..sianz..another nearly working day it seem to be..i m still studying now le..bubu.. many things i tot not tat i tot..n many thing i not tot shld be tot...

2006-10-08T09:28:00.000-07:00

Starbucks brings ecstasy of pleasure,
A feeling so divine that cannot be measured.
Leaving me breathless,
a feeling of alleviation,
Walking in Starbucks I feel a sense of dedication.
Inhaling the scent of eternal bliss,
I reach out to the gentle cups,
giving them a kiss.
Joyful tasting, pleasure me entirely;
bursting with vivacity,
This love, this place is full of mystery.
My dear Starbucks,
we gather you to praise,
How happy you make us and brighten our days.
Such a beautiful taste, a delicious scent dragging me in,
It must be heaven sent, nothing close to a sin.
Twenty-thousand words may display,
My love for this drink - it is my final way;
Share with me your desire of affection,
Showing me of your love and dedication.

2006-10-08T04:47:00.000-07:00

yesterday went for movie- JAckie chan n ku tian le act 1...n a cute cute baby..u know wat movie i meant..quite funny n nice..not bad for watching it..then went for shopping or window shopping coz i not brought any..juz my fren them only..till night oni bec...ate japanese set meal..then bec at night..but tired de..then had a nap..then play dota..then slep till NOW!!! 5pm...omg...so long i slep..the reason is i tired n less slp for the whole week n now "reGAIN" it bec?yea..i slep everyday 2 hours plus plus...i skipped my breakfast n lunch le...i m gonna to lose my weight again..sianz..2moro got attachment ..had to wake up at 6am...oh...another suffering attachment..juz few days more..then finished liao..emm.later may out to eat la..then bec i think i will play dota...now kl condition still hazy...the air not tat freshlo...out oso difficult...esp outdoor activity...but not included indoor activity like shopping la..i cant c sun n moon oso..;(... n i at 24th floor..u imaginela..how worst the circumstances..haha...cheers

2006-10-05T08:27:00.000-07:00

Long time didn’t online. Coz I cant online..the wireless here damn lauzy..i shared wit the down floor ppl..tat’s wise like tat lo..sigh..n they not there at this time..remember?got attachement..be frank, I was tired n exhausted everyday after attachment..n everyday had to wake up at 6 something..omg..i think I need to slep lot during weekend. Stil got 1 week attachment then study break de…I hate study oso..wat to do le..i felt tat I quite rush for every morning coz I nearly late ..n we needed bout half hours to reach therelo..old liao..i found tat my white hair increased day by day..weather of this few days not good in this few days…u know y?actly I duno oso..juz tat very hazy..the polluted air ba…if can, dun outlo..hmm..any ar…emm..is like so so ba..i watched animation tis few days la..-full metal alchemist which I borrowed from my fren..i not watched b4 lo..emm..quite nice..not bad…tis few days attachment juz like help them to do things lo..coz I at regulatory part ..so more more sianz…n I felt tat how the working’s life is..need more responsibility…n there is no ending…non-stop..bubu..where is my day? n there still got a place for me?actly, for me juz simple..i am a very simple guy..if u happy, I will be happier..i quite tired..my eye so heavy..cant tahan liao..okla..hope I can blog more often..very sianz n boring to read my blog oso rite?..everyday is the same..life is like tat lo..sometime I felt very boring aso..ok..sayonara..haha..gambateh!

2006-09-29T10:48:00.000-07:00

Not happy!! 2day is my last day in sem 5...2day juz ate 1 meal oni n i m going to lose my weight soon ..y? coz rush for my 2 reports lo...n so rush...but finally finished liao..not happy with some of my fren who always said one of the lecturer who always find me in the class if i left n absent for awhile loved me..y this people not think properly n juz create tis kind of crazy joke?i dun think tis is kidding lo..he wants to c me, not necessary he loved me ok?use ur brain la..somehow i was sad to be loved by him oso...u think tis is funny?i think this is crazy n makes no sense..n i think the lecturer know i trying to avoid him liao..n not much talk to me as before..duno he will fail me anot in the exam..sigh...i duno...really duno...n somehow..i duno wat n why the lecturer so concern bout melo..i dun like tat coz i no freedom at all..i quite disappointed with those ppl who said he loved me..i very hate to hear this words...n i duno i really hav a true n good fren anot..some ppl very selfish....may i was unlucky..who really really readily n treated me good..i will know..hopefully i can be more fortune in searching fren nex time...

2006-09-28T00:28:00.000-07:00

juz wokeup...emm yesterday so tired..but is oklo...got to rush my works--report n medication reveiw..sigh..duno how to do le..suck!...later got cheerleading...i will go watchla..hehe..yo...i slp so long..but quite ok de now..listen to song...relax..

2006-09-26T05:12:00.000-07:00

The Wind plays..Avalanched of leaves!Shuffling flooded rivers with brewed melancholy
and
The Moon plays..Hide and seek Above distant stained clouds that dances with no harmony
then
The Thunder plays..Dangle and dazzle!Roaring loudly, the Galloping echoes of ecstasy
as
The Rain plays..Parades of Splashes!Like a curtain, that envelops through eternity
so
When nature plays..Marvel and wonderIs it the work of God?or is it God itself.....

2006-09-26T04:44:00.000-07:00

i juz bec from KFC...2day GOT discount!!! i got the offered card...tried the new EXTRA SPICY chicken..but not tat spicy osola...2day finally finished psd n settled ptptn loans ...not ned to fan it anymore..but 2moro stil got pbl..sigh..2day i at psd room measured my weight..yea..i gained 2 more kg liao..actly, b4 tat i underweightlo..so so so desired n wished to gain weight lo..but watever n however i ate tat many oso cant gainle..n mayb tat time i sicked oso, my weight dropped terribly ..now OSO underweight..but got gain bit bitla..oklo..haha...tis afternoon i had a short napla..but now tired de...i wonder y..is tat my weight gaining is bcoz of sleping alot?b frank, i slp quite alots lor..tis few days...haha.damn like pig...emm..the most important things is health la..undeniably, i slep quite manyla if compared to my abnormal life b4...i slp oni 2 to 3 hours perday b4 n damn crazy n siaolo...haha...sudden felt tat i very long time didnt do exercise liao..last time i evryday at least got 1 outdoor activity..now dun hav liao..busy n a word...lazylo...thinking of trying to make myself more energetic n active in future...

2006-09-25T11:45:00.000-07:00

Waseh..2day is my 1st time got 5 meals in one day lo..breakfast, lunch, dinner, supper N extra SUPPER!!! omg..duno i can fat ma..everytime i ate so much but at last still the same..CAN'T FAT lor..haha..duno y..my digestive system too geng???or metabolism??n all meals are heavy heavy 1 lor..nvmla..i wont fat 1..then wat can eat then eatlo..haha..any comments or ways to recommend to me about how to gain weight ar? N 2day morning bout 10 am somethings..there was a handsome guy who aged 18 to 20...or "FLASHER" in the area around our university..u know...This happened when a gal walked through n on the way to uni, the guy who is in "kancil" car..purple color 1...asked the gal where is the bukit jalil through the window from the car??..n the gal answered him tat this place islor..n suddenly, very unexpected happening in front of the gal...u know wat? the gal found tat the guy is jerking off...n wear very short pant..then the gal scolded him n quickly ran away...n the news were spread around in our university..so, we muz be careful especially the gal la..be aware...for me, not need to worry la...;)

2006-09-25T09:11:00.000-07:00

Finally 2day i finised my veterinary exam n report ..quite relax..2moro got psd n ned to prepare for my pbl n presentation for my wednesday..sigh..got works to do oso..sianz..emm..2day after finished the task, i n my fren went to midvalley juz lepak around lo.nothing to do..juz wan relax..eat..chat..decide wan to watch movie..but if watch, then will be very latelo..n nothing much can do..so not watch finally..my eyes very heavy now..i think i cant do works..so tired..i ned a nice slep..a nice bath..n a rest.....too tired...exhausted...2moro muz jia youlo..;)

2006-09-23T11:39:00.000-07:00

2day same same ...study for my vet exam..very hate le...so many..they think i m god meh...n 2day very peace..nothing much happen..juz at home...eat, slep and study..watch tv...gotla..a while oni..listen to song..dancing...while studying..haha..damn crazy rite?but only way to make me stil awake..n wont slp..nex week the last week of my school day..then finis 1 sem de..actly, cant said finis..juz finis normal day..then got industry replacement n study break..ned bec for exam oso...n got reportle..never end..but hope all can be done smoothly..2moro 6pm i will bec kl by bus..leave my lovely bed le..duno y..everytime i bec home..felt tat so comfortable..expecially in this time 2.40am...so peace..so silent..a good time for me to dream.. to think...to study..to do watever..juz in peace..in a very stable mood..home sweet home...or maybe here near to nature..far away from rush..no stress at all for me..juz relax...inhale ..exhale..inhale..

2006-09-22T05:47:00.000-07:00

Izit money is more than a relationship?sometime got ppl even relatives in conflict juz bcoz of money..y they cant give a died person a peace?juz a peace??sometime i really duno wat they wanted?juz for money?mayb this is not my matter..but seem the died person treated me so good b4 she went away from my life...sigh..i very disppointed coz i cant do any for her..coz i wont be able..to settle this big family issues..i not adult?no...then wat is the reason?mayb i not tat old as them...they want to stop the relationshipwo...this words they can said out..imagine...i juz can silent n let the whole things occurs...i duno wat will happen later...n i too young to know their adult things..nothing i can do....meawhile,i rushed for my veterinary report n exam tis few days lo..sigh...i hate do reportlo..but ned pass up oso...so hav to do..2day juz same as previous...eat, slep, study, do report...n got 1 extra thing la..watch tv..haha..long time didnt watch...2day got one in the million which is a singing competition in malaysia..yea...suki who is the only chinese among 3 last ppls won..yup...she got 1 million..if for me, i will very happylo n can do many things that i want...so envy...now 1am liao..duno when i will slep...i will still online..tis is one of the way for me to relax ba...

2006-09-20T19:37:00.000-07:00

Later bec hometown..2day weather bit cloudy..can said good for journey or bad for journey..quite sianz...got works n many to study as usual..but 2day i think i m gota to relax myself..i cant c where the sun now..above the cloud?..feeling somethings strange 2day..duno how explain..

2006-09-20T04:50:00.000-07:00

2day so early wokeup n went for pbl (problem based learning)..as usual, group discussion and 2day topic is infertility in male n female..i hate to wake up so early actly n in rush ...coz dunolo..slep late...sigh..luckily not late la..coz facilitator oso late..haha..then i not late..emm...then eat breakfast after tat..then went for classtest feedback n discussion bout the management with my group members...n then in rush oso...went to visit another veterinary or can said food production industry..all in rush..n my lunch was do fu hua only lor..sigh...tis visit was nice with 2 hours of lecture..N ...2 mineral waters ...n went for a visit only lo..in other word...nothing special sianz..the journey went there consumed 1 hours..imagine..but we went by the bus provided by the university la..if not, gota tired bcoz of the journeylo..i slept in bus la...then when reached there, quite blur blur..May be not enough slep ba..haha..then eat my dinner, chat with my housemate, watch tv...think of going out jogging with them..but seem like i so lazy...not follow lo..later mayb i will stat c my vet report..coz nex week hav to pas up...not stat yet..n hav to revise the examla...but can said bit relax coz stil got time..then relax bitlo..if not, i will ki siao le..haha...sunset now..

2006-09-19T08:48:00.000-07:00

Yesterday have a sound sleep..mayb too tired coz too many things to do till i not enough slep..if compare to last time, i think tis time i slep more ..but can said not more oso..coz quite normal ba..or in other word, bec to normal liao..las time can said abnormal..duno..i think my biological clock got something wrong..haha..dependlo..sometime i normal sometime abnormal..2day as usual ..eat, do works..n rush my management..yea..i think i can or shld finis by 2day liao..tis week seem quite free to me...although got many things to do..yea..my sem is going to end soon..juz tat after tis is my study break...n industry replacement...n exam...hopefully this time i got holiday la...hehe..hope so...if can, everyday is my holiday...i want to be myself...dun wan to become casper...u may know or duno..nitezz..hope 2moro my another lucky n meaningful day...gambateh...

2006-09-18T09:12:00.000-07:00

No mountains too high for you to climb..All you have to do is have some climbing faith, oh yeah...No rivers too wide for you to make it across...All you have to do is believe it when you pray...And then you will see the morning will come...And everyday will be bright as the sun...All of your fears cast them on me...I just want you to see...I'll be your cloud up in the sky...I'll be your shoulder when you cry...I'll hear your voices when you call me...I am your angel...And when all hope is gone, I'm near...No matter how far you are, I'm near...It makes no difference who you are...I am your angel..I am your angel..I saw your teardrops, and I heard you cry...All you need is time...Seek me and you shall find...You have everything and your still lonely...It don't have to be this way...Let me show you a better day...And then you will see...The morning will come...And all of your days will be bright as the sun...So all of your fears...Just cast them on me...How can I make you see...I'll be your cloud up in the sky...I'll be your shoulder when you cry...I'll hear your voices when you call me...I am your angel...And when all hope is gone, I'm near...No matter how far you are, I'm near...It makes no difference who you are...I am your angel...I am your angel...And when its time to face the storm...I'll be right by your side...Grace will keep us safe and warm...And I know we will survive...And when it seems as if...Your end is drawing near..Don't you dare give up the fight...Put your trust beyond the skys...I'll be your cloud up in the sky...I'll be your shoulder when you cry...I'll hear your voices when you call me...I am your angel...And when all hope is gone, I'm near...No matter how far you are, I'm near...It makes no difference who you are...I am your angel...I am your angel...i wish to be ur angel...

2006-09-18T05:36:00.000-07:00

My life...My lust for life...it stimulates...The feelings of love...it radiates...My zest for life...is unrestricted...Has no belief...in the predicted...My thirst for life...is only quenched...By my emersion...to remain entrenched..My pursuit of life...defies limitation...Dreams of belonging...and not isolation...My fear of life...at times immeasurable...The courage to conquer...is truly pleasurable...My strength in life...is appreciation...I do not stumble...on expectation...My faith in life...comes from believing...Rewards come from giving...and not in receiving...My goal in life...is to be realistic...Helplessly and hopefully...stay optimistic...My aspirations in life...to touch the unreachable...Humbly remain...the proud but the teachable...To do it well...and to do it true..Is all God ever asks of you...

2006-09-18T04:59:00.000-07:00

Finally 2day finished my management class test..n oso psd- oral contraceptive, sleeping pill, novolet, novopen...emm...ok ok la..juz tat wont be as pecfectly as i think la...some ppl said i good in short term memorywo..but i dun think lo..wat i think is i getting older n older..as time goes by, i think my memory became lauzy liaole..of coz i ned to remember as hardly as i can lo ..if not, i will fail ar...write one le...but not all i can remember oso lo..coz why?coz i am also a man, a human...after exam, went for psd session...which is counseling the simulated patients...initially, very jing zang lo coz i duno wat i shld prepare n mani i duno..so like go inside without preparation..then after tat, ok de..after i know wat are going to be asked briefly la..duno y i always scared psd lo..haha..mayb my communication skill not good n if i not prepare, i will panic easily le..n juz huh here n there..so cha sui lo..but i tried to improvela..ned time..then after tat, i n fren went for dinner in kuchai lama..i ate prawn mee n found tat not tat nice as i think...but can filled my hungry stomachla..n my frens they juz stayed there for juz a while..but not long since one of it ned to rush bec to rush selective projects...me toolor..duno y so many things to dolo..sianz..y cant stop one???i think only will stop after i graduated...later night they will go for basketball final competition...i duno i wan go anot..coz too tired..n stil got many things to settle..management projects...veterinary report...veterinary exam...oh...suck!duno wat time will slep..hope can slep early but muz after finis the tasks tat i think shld finis by 2day...

2006-09-16T11:56:00.000-07:00

so many..cant finis lo..think tat 2moro oso hard for me to finis oso..sianz.now 3 am liao..duno how..how?????seilo..study oso forgot..too old liao ar..sigh..2moro ned to try study as much as possible lo..if cant finis, i oso cant do any..juz try my best..i so tired wan slep liao..zzz...

2006-09-16T01:20:00.000-07:00

i felt very frustrated bout study..some ppl said study is more relax n better than work..but i felt like i veri bored in studying this course...i no direction..evritime study like juz memorizing..study n study..juz to get a degree?so lifeless like tat..n evritime wat i scared is fail lo..i dun want to fail again!!! although i not really fail la..if i failed, i wont be able stil in this course now...sigh..wat to do? is life lo..i want relax after my exam..coz i really cant relax during exam..still alot things not study lo..sigh again...suck...

2006-09-15T20:15:00.000-07:00

Sometime we ned to be aware of ppl bside us..i duno whether i know the true fren anot..shall we juz play around n juz kidding around?but react behind in different way?by saying another way in front of ppl..ask themselves whether they pretend to do tat? N ask urself..do u try to do tat?Is this a trend nowadays to prevent ppl to take advantages on u?i dun like tis kind of real fren..i c ...i felt...i can sense...even they dun believed..is ok..nvm..but wat i hope is they realised wat they did..n never regret with their reactions..i cant comment too much coz i oso same as them...i had to do tat coz i oso duno who is the true n real n the most important is which ppl is good to u...i was forced to do tat in other words..actly, i dun wan to do so many of this kind things..i wan peace...but no..the reality is cruel..is not tat realistic..many ppl wear mask in front of u..be careful..to conclude, i not the real of me...only i n myself n the only true fren will know the real of me...

2006-09-15T09:27:00.000-07:00

My soul drifts aimlessly in times of hopelessness.It searches tirelessly for meaning and truth ...Yet finds no direction.My heart bleeds quietly in times of loneliness.It yearns to find warmth and happiness ...Yet it somehow eludes me.My eyes seek out visions in times of want.They gaze endlessly through the blackness that envelops them ...Yet they cannot see the light.My ears listen earnestly in times of silence.They search for familiar sounds to comfort and console ...Yet they cannot penetrate the darkness that surrounds me.My arms reach out frantically in times of despair.They seek strength and compassion to enfold me ...Yet they find nothing substantial to enwrap.My mind cries out desperately in times of solitude.It poses intense questions that demand answers ...Yet there are none to be found.My hand reaches out earnestly in these times of confusion.It dials the number of a familiar and calming voice ...And gratefully, my lifeline to sanity ... remains intact.

2006-09-15T07:44:00.000-07:00

Simply makes perfect?i found out tat blogging in this way easier for me to update more frequently n not ned so waste time...Today is friday.The end of weekday on this week. next monday exam..sigh ..another task to be completed..2day got 2 of my frens had their car brokedown on the road..so unluckily..n one of it made another ppl until he cant slep..ho?...haha..but is ok la..at least u tried to help..although u became the innocent one..but someday she will knowle ur kindness hopefully...zu ren wei kuai le zi ben rite?dun slep for few hours nia..And i went to leo's cafe to eat my dinner with them lo..from there, i know this..emm..2day raining..we decided go pasarmlm but bcoz rain lo..sui ka be si..i cant change the lawzy dvd...ned to wait for another weeklo..n cant eat my favourite foods..There is a question here for 2day..and the question is whether it is legal for buddist ppl to consume bovine capsule?how about if this is for supplement?for own benefit?...i stil no idea bout it...although we cant get wat we want, but as long as we do our best is enough de..i believe that if this is urs, is urs...if not, then is not..so abstract ..but is ok..

Wake up: about 6am
Sleep : about 1am ..i think so...